I heard this for the first time last week while getting ready for work but didn't catch the entire video. Then tonight, while DH and I were coming home from an impromptu dinner out, this song came on. Timely perhaps? Here's hoping! We are heading to our 18 1/2 week ultrasound tomorrow morning.
"I see a light, a little hope..in a little girl..."
"I see a light, a little grace, little faith unfurl. Well hello world."
** It seems that when I originally published this post, the embedded video had part of the screen cut off. Many thanks to my girl Iris for helping me out! You can still go to Lady Antebellum's video Hello World here if you prefer.**
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
*sigh*
So we had to make another trip up to the local hospital this morning. I went to the bathroom, wiped, and there it was again...blood. I have had the occasional spot here and there over the last week, but today, it was enough to make me panic. I sat on the couch for a few minutes, and my DH came up from the basement and I told him what happened. He said, "OK, we'll go get you checked out, it is a good day to hear the baby's heartbeat". I love how he always has a way to calm me down when I get worked up.
By the time we left the house, the bleeding had stopped, which I think just makes the nurses think I'm crazy, but I would rather have it stop, than continue. So I got up to Labour and Delivery, where I had a great nurse! It was the same doctor that saw me today, that saw me the night before Kheri passed away. The nurse found the baby's heartbeat with the fetal monitor, and that was very reassuring. The doctor came in, and we had a nice chat, to explain what was going on, and the possible reasons why. He explained what exactly a friable cervix is, and why it bleeds. I asked if a friable cervix can become an incompetent cervix (that would cause me to deliver my baby too prematurely for it to survive). He said no, but seeing as I was concerned about it, he suggested that we do a cervical check. Everything looks fine, cervix is long and closed, so we don't have to worry about it. I am going to see the specialist on Wednesday of this week for my 18-20 week scan, and he said that he was going to send a note to her to have her check the cervix, and suggested that I remind her as well. I really like the way this doctor took the time to explain, talk, and answer my questions (and there were a few!!). He said "The great thing about this operation is we're always here, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You come back whenever you need to... Anytime a woman sees blood during a pregnancy, she is allowed to be anxious, and especially in your circumstances". (*I have to note, both of those sentences were said, just at different points in the conversation*)
So we spent another hour at the hospital this morning. The nurses and the doctor told me to come back, whenever I need to. *sigh* I just want a living child 20-22 weeks from now, it would be nice if these scares would stop, but one of the kind nurses explained to me this morning that these scares will continue until she is about 13 years old, when her brains fall out and I will want to strangle her...lol. So I have been couch ridden today, I am glad that work is almost over. It will be nice to not have to worry about that too.
And for the record...I straightened my hair yesterday and found at least three SILVER hairs. They weren't white, they weren't colourless, the were silver. I have already removed 2 silver hairs in this pregnancy, it appears that I might be bald by the time this pregnancy is over!
By the time we left the house, the bleeding had stopped, which I think just makes the nurses think I'm crazy, but I would rather have it stop, than continue. So I got up to Labour and Delivery, where I had a great nurse! It was the same doctor that saw me today, that saw me the night before Kheri passed away. The nurse found the baby's heartbeat with the fetal monitor, and that was very reassuring. The doctor came in, and we had a nice chat, to explain what was going on, and the possible reasons why. He explained what exactly a friable cervix is, and why it bleeds. I asked if a friable cervix can become an incompetent cervix (that would cause me to deliver my baby too prematurely for it to survive). He said no, but seeing as I was concerned about it, he suggested that we do a cervical check. Everything looks fine, cervix is long and closed, so we don't have to worry about it. I am going to see the specialist on Wednesday of this week for my 18-20 week scan, and he said that he was going to send a note to her to have her check the cervix, and suggested that I remind her as well. I really like the way this doctor took the time to explain, talk, and answer my questions (and there were a few!!). He said "The great thing about this operation is we're always here, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You come back whenever you need to... Anytime a woman sees blood during a pregnancy, she is allowed to be anxious, and especially in your circumstances". (*I have to note, both of those sentences were said, just at different points in the conversation*)
So we spent another hour at the hospital this morning. The nurses and the doctor told me to come back, whenever I need to. *sigh* I just want a living child 20-22 weeks from now, it would be nice if these scares would stop, but one of the kind nurses explained to me this morning that these scares will continue until she is about 13 years old, when her brains fall out and I will want to strangle her...lol. So I have been couch ridden today, I am glad that work is almost over. It will be nice to not have to worry about that too.
And for the record...I straightened my hair yesterday and found at least three SILVER hairs. They weren't white, they weren't colourless, the were silver. I have already removed 2 silver hairs in this pregnancy, it appears that I might be bald by the time this pregnancy is over!
Monday, November 1, 2010
November 1st- 17 weeks + 2 days prenatal appointment
We had a prenatal appointment at the local hospital this morning. I actually met a doctor I have never met before. A tiny little thing, and when she was measuring my tummy she said that she had twins last year. I popped my head off the pillow and said "Really!? where did you put them?" :P She was really nice though, she asked about work, and addressed any concerns I had. She even asked when my next appointment with the specialist is.
It is official, I have gained an entire pound over my pre-pregnancy weight! So now I think I can guess which way the scales are going to go from here! My abdomen is measuring right on track and my blood pressure was sitting at 126/74 which is a bit high for me,(I usually average around 110-115/60-65), but nothing to be concerned about. Baby was moving around today and the doctor had to work a little to get her heart beat. It wasn't long, but those few seconds always feel like an eternity. She got the heart beat for a few seconds, then had to adjust the doppler to get it again because, as she said "someone is moving around in there!" When she got a reading she said it sounded good and was around 140bpm.
I guess that is it. We go to see the specialist again on Nov 10th for our 18-20 week full biophysical scan. This little girl already has her own calendar! Otherwise I'd never know which doctor to go to and on what date.
It is official, I have gained an entire pound over my pre-pregnancy weight! So now I think I can guess which way the scales are going to go from here! My abdomen is measuring right on track and my blood pressure was sitting at 126/74 which is a bit high for me,(I usually average around 110-115/60-65), but nothing to be concerned about. Baby was moving around today and the doctor had to work a little to get her heart beat. It wasn't long, but those few seconds always feel like an eternity. She got the heart beat for a few seconds, then had to adjust the doppler to get it again because, as she said "someone is moving around in there!" When she got a reading she said it sounded good and was around 140bpm.
I guess that is it. We go to see the specialist again on Nov 10th for our 18-20 week full biophysical scan. This little girl already has her own calendar! Otherwise I'd never know which doctor to go to and on what date.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
October 25 - Our 16 week appointment with the Specialist
Yesterday we had our 16 weeks checkup with the specialist. First things first, everything looks good so far with the baby. We have a GIRL! and she is measuring right on track!
The doctor had a resident working with her yesterday. He was a very nice and polite young man who took some ultrasound pictures (mostly size measurements) before the doctor took over. He went right to her head first and was measuring it for gestational age. I just wanted to scream "Ok..forget that for a minute, show me the heart!" He then measured the belly, and then went to the leg bones. As he measured the legs I saw her feet and legs stretch out, and instantly felt better. But that was a long time to wait to get some reassurance! After that, that child would move just as a picture was taken..resulting in that "fuzzy" appearance. The doctor even said "She is quite active".
The doctor then took over and took some pictures and measurements. The bowels are not bright at this point, and we even got some pictures too! She did take some pictures of a fold in the placenta. She said "I'm really not concerned about it, there is no blood behind it, and the baby looks fine". So I'm trying to put that to the back of my mind, and I'm desperately resisting the urge to google it. I know from previous experience that the Internet will just scare me. She is really honest, and I know that if she was concerned she would say so!
So here is our second little girl! I get to go back in 2-3 weeks for a full biophysical profile, since there were some organs that were just too small to get good pictures of yesterday.
Oh, and here is the "look" she is going for this Halloween season!
The doctor had a resident working with her yesterday. He was a very nice and polite young man who took some ultrasound pictures (mostly size measurements) before the doctor took over. He went right to her head first and was measuring it for gestational age. I just wanted to scream "Ok..forget that for a minute, show me the heart!" He then measured the belly, and then went to the leg bones. As he measured the legs I saw her feet and legs stretch out, and instantly felt better. But that was a long time to wait to get some reassurance! After that, that child would move just as a picture was taken..resulting in that "fuzzy" appearance. The doctor even said "She is quite active".
The doctor then took over and took some pictures and measurements. The bowels are not bright at this point, and we even got some pictures too! She did take some pictures of a fold in the placenta. She said "I'm really not concerned about it, there is no blood behind it, and the baby looks fine". So I'm trying to put that to the back of my mind, and I'm desperately resisting the urge to google it. I know from previous experience that the Internet will just scare me. She is really honest, and I know that if she was concerned she would say so!
So here is our second little girl! I get to go back in 2-3 weeks for a full biophysical profile, since there were some organs that were just too small to get good pictures of yesterday.
Oh, and here is the "look" she is going for this Halloween season!
Sunday, October 17, 2010
I need a maid....anyone?...Anyone?? ... No?... :s
I believe, that I have never been this tired in my entire life. When I was pregnant with Kheri, at least I found the energy to exercise and run errands.
I am attempting to work five day weeks, and even that is proving to be a challenge! By last Friday, I thought I was going to die. I just wanted to curl up, and sleep. Instead, I went to work, and tried desperately to conquer the stupid project I'm working on. This was to no avail, and I left work more frustrated than when I went in. I came home, and spent all day yesterday doing laundry (about 6 loads of it!!), and I vowed that was all I was going to do. Then mid afternoon, while going for a drink of water I was disgusted by our floors. So I swept, and then decided that perhaps a shower would make me feel better and almost barfed when I looked at the condition of our shower. So I emptied the remainder of our green cleaners onto the walls and the bottom of the shower and gave it a scrub. I did a sink full of dishes, and took some recyclables to the basement and lit a nice toasty fire. By dinner time, I was toast. I have decided that I need a maid...and despite my best effort the cats are not willing participants. I have attempted to tie swiffers to their feet, to no avail.
Today, I have an awful headache. I have been to the banks, to the stores, and home again. I've done another sink of dishes, and baked a batch of muffins without setting off the fire alarm (who says I can't cook!). I really should finish that laundry, lite another fire, and do some dusting, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I am utterly exhausted. So I think I am going to give in to the fatigue, lay down, and watch some bad Sunday T.V. Thankfully I took care of dinner when I got groceries..Sobeys take and bake pizzas. I almost bought a bottle of baby laundry soap today, then said to myself "Just wait a few more weeks". I hate that I do that. I hate that I have this apprehension of everything.
I am also eagerly waiting to feel those first movements. I have felt the occasional tickle, or knock but, so that I don't drive myself crazy, I have decided to classify them as digestive tickles and knocks. 15 weeks + 1 day today, another 25 weeks (well 22 weeks if I have my way) to go. Hang in there baby, we're waiting for you!
I am attempting to work five day weeks, and even that is proving to be a challenge! By last Friday, I thought I was going to die. I just wanted to curl up, and sleep. Instead, I went to work, and tried desperately to conquer the stupid project I'm working on. This was to no avail, and I left work more frustrated than when I went in. I came home, and spent all day yesterday doing laundry (about 6 loads of it!!), and I vowed that was all I was going to do. Then mid afternoon, while going for a drink of water I was disgusted by our floors. So I swept, and then decided that perhaps a shower would make me feel better and almost barfed when I looked at the condition of our shower. So I emptied the remainder of our green cleaners onto the walls and the bottom of the shower and gave it a scrub. I did a sink full of dishes, and took some recyclables to the basement and lit a nice toasty fire. By dinner time, I was toast. I have decided that I need a maid...and despite my best effort the cats are not willing participants. I have attempted to tie swiffers to their feet, to no avail.
Today, I have an awful headache. I have been to the banks, to the stores, and home again. I've done another sink of dishes, and baked a batch of muffins without setting off the fire alarm (who says I can't cook!). I really should finish that laundry, lite another fire, and do some dusting, but I just can't bring myself to do it. I am utterly exhausted. So I think I am going to give in to the fatigue, lay down, and watch some bad Sunday T.V. Thankfully I took care of dinner when I got groceries..Sobeys take and bake pizzas. I almost bought a bottle of baby laundry soap today, then said to myself "Just wait a few more weeks". I hate that I do that. I hate that I have this apprehension of everything.
I am also eagerly waiting to feel those first movements. I have felt the occasional tickle, or knock but, so that I don't drive myself crazy, I have decided to classify them as digestive tickles and knocks. 15 weeks + 1 day today, another 25 weeks (well 22 weeks if I have my way) to go. Hang in there baby, we're waiting for you!
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Prenatal Appointment: 13 weeks + 2 days
I had another prenatal appointment yesterday at the local hospital. The doctor was able to hear the baby's heart beat with the doppler, and it was quite audible!! He said that hearing the heart beat like that was a really good sign considering I am only 13 weeks along and we have to listen/try to find the heart beat through the placenta. Often, when they try to listen through the placenta all they hear is my heart beat. So that was very reassuring. I am having a lot of stretching and lower back discomfort, which I have read is normal, thanks to relaxin. The stretching is a good sign, and as uncomfortable as it may be...I don't mind!
The doctor also modified my work accommodation note to get me off my feet a little more. This was done more for my peace of mind that for safety of the baby. He said that exercise should not effect the bleeding that I am experiencing, but I do wonder if it does sometimes. My blood pressure was good (considering), and I have lost 3 lbs since my last appointment. I thought for sure that I would have gained at least 5 lbs. So far, I have lost 2 lbs total in this pregnancy, but I know that will change very soon! Here comes thanksgiving, and Christmas..and PIE!!!!!
The doctor also modified my work accommodation note to get me off my feet a little more. This was done more for my peace of mind that for safety of the baby. He said that exercise should not effect the bleeding that I am experiencing, but I do wonder if it does sometimes. My blood pressure was good (considering), and I have lost 3 lbs since my last appointment. I thought for sure that I would have gained at least 5 lbs. So far, I have lost 2 lbs total in this pregnancy, but I know that will change very soon! Here comes thanksgiving, and Christmas..and PIE!!!!!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
and Again....
So, after a great couple of days, the spotting started again this morning. So, off to the hospital I went. The critter did not want to co-operate for a doppler reading, so I instantly thought "oh here we go again". The nurse had the doctor come in (which was my family doctor!), and she went and got the ultrasound. Much to my relief we saw the baby's heart beating away, and she left the ultrasound on so that I could see him/her move. The baby gave us a little show, so that provided much relief.
The doctor said "Sometimes, bleeding just happens, but if you ever need reassurance you come up". She said that it is much like a nose bleed. Sometimes they happen for no apparent reason, and they re-occur a few times before everything heals up.
My hubby was working today, but my best girl Iris found her way to me at the hospital, and has been with me all day. Thank-you babe, for who you are and everything you do!
The doctor said "Sometimes, bleeding just happens, but if you ever need reassurance you come up". She said that it is much like a nose bleed. Sometimes they happen for no apparent reason, and they re-occur a few times before everything heals up.
My hubby was working today, but my best girl Iris found her way to me at the hospital, and has been with me all day. Thank-you babe, for who you are and everything you do!
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